as Trust departs us..so do we bid each other..our FINAL GOODBYE..

It has come to the extent that I don't hope for love..Let aside hoping,I don't even dream of a cozy affair anymore.. even the dream got lost somewhere..

 all I want is, a bit of respect..respect for what I have for you...respect for the feelings I prize the most in this world...  You do realize, you disgraced my feelings in the worst possible way by thinking I CAN THINK ILL OF YOU, right?!

all I can say right now is-
my feelings...the bare ones THE COLD ONE was ever capable of. ---> the ones I have for you.
I treasure them..more than anything else in this world..

 my love for you, is an entity in itself

it stands tall with his head held high..
with or without you / your trust in them / me / my faith

no one can doubt its vitality..

nor disgrace it by doubting it..

or all the claims people make, (even you did this time),

signifying- it abused/despised itself by killing the very reason why it existed/or that it even existed in the first place!!!

OR
it slayed itself, in your words.

Hell !!! I can't see anything close to undesirable in you, let aside talk about it !!!!!!

SO high on a pedestal I put you up on, don't you know? *sigh*

still tryin to reason- How one can even think such..!!! esp when it comes to you..and me !!!

I always knew for sure..
that

I can't love you any better..it's the best I am capable of.



but what this episode did was.. 
crystallising before me the exact place where I stand..and where things stand for me.

as I face reality..take it all..head on..for the first time perhaps, I am not running away.
the realization..as it dawned on me..
a pun it is or should I say- an oxymoron it ended up being

How
I respect my feelings for you..much more than the much I Feel..!!!
in short- Respect for the cause here is the insurmountable one, not the very cause.

sooo far away from my vital self.. I am rendered numb..
with every emotion having eluded me, finally.. successfully.
I am at peace.. no more scared to cry out - 
SMITE ME OH MIGHTY SMITER (God or whatever they "fondly" call out your name as!!)   anymore..!!!

  I DON'T FEAR YOU..NO MORE