Feelings..the ultimate puzzle.. (July 11, 2010, 8:36pm)

It was one of those moments tonight..  when I could feel a sense of loss, SO strong..
even though I didn't lose anything, in the first place.
Still this feeling..

Something inside me, don't know what, is aching.. hurting sooo bad..

Ya it is physical pain, that I am experiencing right now..
My heart, it feels so heavy, all of a sudden.. weighed down by what, I have absolutely no clue to..

Pain?  Since when did feelings start having a mass of their own!!
Or is it my heart wanting to burst out of my chest, crying out aloud?

If yes, then how come all I can hear is this maddening silence... and where are those tears?

A choking sensation down my throat..as if I am being strangled!!
Feels like... like I am broke.. bankrupt overnight.. or, robbed of my most priced possession.. the only thing I've ever earned, in all these years that I have lived.. But then,


Hey there, it never was mine!! It never belonged with me/to me, let aside 'earning' it!!

Thinking hard... wondering... trying to comprehend, why this feeling of loss, for something she never had.. She knew it like the back of her hand, it NEVER was hers'...from the very start.. Then why does it feel SO much of her own,esp tonight...

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